Maybe it's the angst of having been on break for so long (I know, FWP), but recently I've been more anxious about the future than ever. Maybe it's because I just submitted my applications for 10 pharmacy residency programs, and now I play the waiting game to hear back about whether or not I'd be getting an interview with any of them. An interview that hardly even guarantees me a spot in the program, but a chance nonetheless. Maybe it's because the graduation date that I couldn't wait for is finally here, and now I wish I had a little more time (for what? I don't know, just more time).
It's not that I'm afraid to "grow up", be an "adult", stop being a "college kid" - on the contrary, I'm actually looking forward to moving on - to doing new things, meeting new people, exploring a new city. So what is it? Well the only way I can explain it is that I feel like my feet are stuck in concrete blocks, riding a very slow conveyor belt...to somewhere. Where I'm basically not in control of how fast I'm moving and unsure of where I'm going.
Right now there are just a lot of things up in the air - where everything hinges on if something else happens first. So I get anxious and stressed, and I worry. But then I remember that I'm 23 years old and I still have so. much. time. I still have time to make mistakes, learn from them, and be better. If Plan A doesn't work out then I'll just go with Plan B (pun not intended). You live and you learn, ya know?
If there's anything that I have learned with the beginning of every new year, it's that everything will be okay. There are always going to be times when things seem tough, when things don't seem to be going your way, and you get yourself into a slump. Eventually you'll get yourself out of that hole, you find another way, and life will start to look up again. At the end of the year, you remember the good, the bad, and everything in between - and then you move on to the next.
Conclusion: I'm young, I've got time, everything will work out in the end, one way or another everything's going to be okay.
>> For some reason, this song just makes me feel like everything's going to be okay :) <<
we are young
so let's set the world on fire
we can burn brighter
than the sun